Archive for December, 2008

What Is My Perception Of The World Today?


The world is ego (duality/sensory perception/literal perspective), and that collective self (superego or great spook) is turning in on himself (on humanity, as perceived with the bodily senses). Think of the ego as a tunnel, and that we, as spirit, need to pass through (cease to identity with) it in order to come out in the Light (ourself as a Whole) at the other side, that is, to Be the Light! Right now we are stuck in the tunnel and everything seems dark: the worst in us is coming to the surface of our consciousness, and rather than confront it, and thus by seeing (living) through (letting go of ) the darkness (ego), in the process discovering the Living Light (Christ/Buddha/Krishna, etc)) already Within us–who Is Us–we want to escape self-examination,  failing to absorb the very energy that is our life.

It used to be that we could escape to the “new world”, but today that world has shrunk, and there’s nowhere to hide…except,  maybe,  in ourselves. Thus the collective ego is caught up in a psychological process of self-undoing, which must take place before the light of understanding can filter through the tunnel and come Into Us. So take heart, dear reader, keep your faith strong, and behind all the suffering that comes with holding onto a separate selfhood (ego-satan), feel the Loving Light of God Within coming closer, filling us with the Divine Presence (Stillness/Peace/Compassion) through the shadow (tunnel).

We were put on this earth to selflessly Realize Who and what we really Are (Our innermost Being and Liberation). I say selflessly because so long as we remain centered to the ego/personality/tunnel, which is literal and partial, we can’t know ourself as Nonliteral and Whole. You might say that materialism/egoism is our childhood and spirituality (Nonego) our adulthood. Thus it’s time for us (humanity collectively) to grow up! To accept living responsibility for our own behavior, and seeing (living) through it, step Into the Light!

What Is My Definition Of Enlightenment?


There are several ways of saying this, but they all come down to the same thing: knowing Who and what we really Are.

It seems that the most difficult thing for us to do is to just Be…ourself…Ourself as a Whole. From the moment we are born on earth, culture pressures us to conform to a preconceived image of who and what culture thinks we should be: to make us a product of cultural programing and packaging. This is the ego/personality/satan aspect in us trying to sell the product…to manipulate, control and exploit fate arbitrarily, even collectively, instead of being at one with it.

Yet, to see (live) and pass through our own ego–and its exploitation of the environment (including everyone in it)–thus automatically transmuting the energy that is our life from literal to nonliteral, from material to spiritual, from personal to intupersonal, is to Be Enlightenment (understanding Awareness)…to Be (live) in the ever-present (Nonego), Being (living) as the most Natural, Spontaneous Flow that is Life in itself (Ourself). For in Knowing Who and what we really Are, we are no longer centered (caught up) in the thing, in the past (ego), in sensory perception and duality, but remain Free through the same,  as our innermost Being Is without any attachment to, or conflict with, culture (the world outside).

Thus Enlightenment is the ability to see (intusee) what has always been there.

Facing Our Darkside


Across the planet earth mankind is turning in on himself, but remains, for the most part, unconscious of the fact. Like an alcoholic intoxicated with (hooked on) his condition (willful ignorance), he (we) simply doesn’t realize! Nor does he particularly want to. Indeed, having been well-programed by culture to fixate on the image of things, and by acquiring the product he desires–thus escaping into the gratification that comes with materialism/egoism (like an alcoholic escapes into booze, a drug addict into the bodily sensation or a propagandist into his own spin)–he sells himself on a way of life that can be best described as “cut and run”, refusing to deal directly with the energy (pressure) that afflicts him–but which is his (our) life. Mankind will not take the “heat” or living responsibility for the patterns of his own behavior…for the way in which he sees and projects himself at this moment. And he always has an excuse: mother looked cross-eyed at me when I was three, or whatever. I speak now of the human material condition, of duality, sensory perception and ego by itself alone.

The human ego/personality is an escape artist and a pretender. Cut off from the Whole self, remaining a split-personality, so to speak, he blames the “other” for what he sees but cannot accept in himself. Like the story of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, a conflict naturally develops (and is not all conflict some form of guilt stemming from believing we are a separate entity in space?) projected by the human psyche. But instead of investigating the matter internally, understanding what’s actually coming down inside us and resolving it with compassion, the two rival factions in our psyche, each blaming and hating the other in an attempt to escape their own culpability, continue to make war on each other until the human psyche is permanently damaged–as neither side can win this war without destroying itself in the process. See a parallel here, perhaps, between Arab and Western cultures, not to mention, between republicans and democrats?

Indeed, when culture, to feed its collective craving for whatever, gives sanction to immorality destructive things start to happen…and these thing-events get worse as they become reinforced patterns of behavior over time! Moral authority collapses throughout the culture (the gods lose their magic, so to speak) and society compacts into a mode of “collective self-undoing”, packaging and spinning a perverse (or is it progressive?) behavior or perpetual state of self-victimization (perpetual madness). And, with the politicalization of this state (mentality), the conflict–and the guilt associated with it–in having become politically correct, increases, until, finally, after doing much violence to himself, the victim (us), like an alcoholic, bottoms out. And so it is that this way leads in the end to ruination and oblivion: to disillusionment, despair and death, the final fruits of empire.

The 20th Century is on record as the most violent century in history, and there’s no reason, considering man’s past behavior, not to believe the 21st will be even more violent. But will mankind pay heed to any such warning? Can he (we)? The alcoholic is out of control…and so is mankind as a selfoholic (materialist/egoist)! And, as most alcoholics have to bottom out first, losing everything, before they will accept help, will not the same be true for mankind as a selfoholic? Will not cultures fall like dominoes before this century is over? Alas, this is not about spouting idealism or painting pretty pictures of positive thinking but recognizing generations of reinforced patterns of human behavior! Mankind will need to face his “darkside” before it’s too late, and discover Who and what we really Are. So, what is a person to do?

Face his (our) darkside, of course, now! Confront, penetrate, understand and resolve it. Instead of continuing to play the “image game”, pretending to be what the ego/personality is not, and in actuality can never be, any person who has his or her mind set on liberation (Dr. Jekyll/”white hat”) needs to stare directly into his darkside (Mr. Hyde/”black hat”) and annihilate the conflict (attachment) by seeing through himself…seeing/being through (Before) all the images, emotions and actions projected by the ego/personality!

Mankind lives the image (media) of life, not life as a Whole…as Whole Consciousness.  This is because he identifies with the body/personality as himself instead of with his Spirit/God, our innermost Being. But we Are that Energy-Consciousness or pure Intelligence which gave rise to this very moment, not the form it takes which, like a reflection in the mirror (mind), is an extension (shadow) of Us but is not Us, not the Center (Source) of Awareness! But when we identify with the reflection (image of life) in the mirror (mind) as ourself, then that becomes the center and we are cut off from our Soul (Sole) Reflecting and Intubeing! In our isolation we see everything as existing outside of ourself in space and mind instead of from Within us and As Us, the Whole Consciousness (Intuconsciousness)!

Thus, to the ego/personality the universe is relative, subjective (though appearing objective), partial and temporal (maya). This may be referred to as the “literal perspective” or, if you prefer, ego-satan, the very enemy that mankind faces in himself…and as himself! However, an enemy that ultimately has no real power, life or cause. Therefore, only by passing through himself as the literal perspective (duality/sensory perception/ego) will man see God, the “Nonliteral Perspective”, that is, ourself as a Whole (Intuself/God in man/Christ Jesus)! Such Is the true Resurrection! Not a resurrection of the material body, which would be a continuation of all the suffering that comes with it, but of the Holy Spirit (Nonego), man’s true Self–who Is Selfless–and Intusees through the universe in ourself that all things are nonthings, that is, Nonthingness, Complete in Ourself as a Whole (God)!

But mankind has entered into a dark night of the soul, his world view will crumble into dust, as it must, for ego/personality/satan is not the real doer of anything but its own undoing. Its willfulness (pride) is not God, but an escape artist and a pretender, and as such a living death! Thus mankind goes before a fall, as he (we) must! The spiritual-minded (nonliteral perspective) among us understand this from Within, but the worldly-minded (literal perspective) do not. Like a selfoholic, they don’t see through their need for gratification as an end in itself, as a false absolute. They live the image/form/concept, the media of the senses, losing themselves in it. So the material, literal, personal perspective dominates them, as it must!

Thus, fashioning a mind (world) dominated and continually victimized by their own projections/sensations, the worldly-minded breathe not the Energy-Consciousness (Spirit) behind the image and Within themselves, That which Breathes Ourself as a Whole (Nonliteral Perspective). It is not in the province of ego/personality to do so as the Totality of Being cannot be structured nor manipulated, controlled and exploited by the ego/personality. Suchness Rests “through” the psyche as an attitude of nonattachment and holy indifference, totally open, direct, spontaneous, free and nondependent. Therefore man alone will never literalize the Nonliteral, never materialize the purely Spiritual, for the Totality of Being (Intubeing) cannot be contained by the partiality of being.

But when man’s center of awareness is the Principal of Life (Nonego/the Tao) then the Word Is Lord, as duality/sensory perception/ego are no longer a problem–for we Are Seeing/Being through (Before) the image (concept/form) and projection/sensation the One (Whole) Reality or uncarved Block, as We Are the Totality of Being or Living Light that everything Is! The ego/personality cannot see (be) this, and never will. But in Spirit (God) we Are what We See, there being no division, no conflict (guilt), no attachment in Us.

So, mankind is turning in on himself and entering a dark night of the soul: what do we do? Certainly not cut and run, nor make war on a supposed enemy outside ourself–but turn In and face our darkside directly–taking up our cross and thus accepting full responsibility for our actions (behavior)…and not resorting to any excuses for that behavior nor blaming anyone for it, not even ourself. But seeing things just as they are, and seeing/being through them in ourself, understanding the pattern of behavior and psychological process behind our own (collective) self-victimization, behind the human material condition. The Truth shall set us Free!

Mankind is coming undone, his worlds will collide and crumble, his myths will be shattered, his fears and insecurities (guilt) will be exposed; thus he (we) will stand alone before God, before the Living Energy (Spirit) that Is our Life! At last, in the psychological process of our own self-undoing, mankind will know the truth about the human material condition and that will either lift us into Heaven (Intubeing) or bury us in hell, so to speak…either Free us from our own ego/personality/satan or wrap our body-life in oblivion. The final judgment and determination is ours!

Mankind Is Turning In On Himself (part two)


When we prejudge or project a preconception onto any subject matter, we are suppressing our own consciousness, attempting, even unconsciously, to contain our very life’s energy with the concept, to hold onto it, as it were; thus we entrap ourselves with the projection. Worse still, if we then “identify” with the subject matter, we become hooked on it, that is, it becomes part of our self-image, even unconsciously, and the energy rebounds on us, creating a condition of self-victimization.

Mankind is turning in on himself! On the very energy that he has contained with the universal conceptualization of himself (ourself) as separate entities in space and mind (collective self-image), and thus being centered in the physical body (outside the spirit), remains hooked on the same. And since, out of fear and insecurity, and a low esteem of himself (seeing the world in himself as less than divine)–all of which constitute his “guilt” (sense of separate selfhood)–he would rather “cut and run” from any confrontation with his own projection instead of meeting this intimidation head on, and by Way of the cross, transmute the energy unto God (our innermost Being),  freeing his members from their own ego-satan. Mankind has, in effect, learned emotionally to hate himself for his own moral cowardise!

Of course, man will not consciously admit this to himself, and so, by remaining centered in a state of denial, he waxes hostile in relation to anyone or anything that seemingly brings up this estranged emotion (energy), whether only in thought or by interaction, that rages in his heart. But others are only a mirror unto himself, and when he condemns others, even lashing out at them for what he is seeing in himself, man is condemning himself (ourself) collectively! In time the pattern of his behavior becomes obsessive-addictive, as the repetition takes him (us) further out of control. Thus it’s the energy that drives him…he does not drive the energy.

But hypocrisy is a crime against the soul, and against each other, thus against God, our innermost Being. In living the image of life as reality, by containing the very energy that is life (ourself) instead of allowing such to flow freely back into God, we are manipulated, controlled and exploited by it, that is, by our own projection (ego)! We have turned the same into satan, so-called, and ego-satan judges us guilty! So we must suffer our own ignorance, nailing Jesus to the cross again and again! Indeed, our hypocrisy, and the struggle that goes with it, rules the world, and is the suffering that defines and frames the human material condition. And it’s all coming to a head! Because mankind (and that means each of us) cannot escape himself (ourself). We are the pattern and character of our behavior: as we live so are we!

Now, if we were to study alcoholism, and see it as a pattern of behavior or process of living, we would come to realize its self-destructiveness. Likewise, if we observe and study mankind in the world outside as a collective pattern of behavior or process of living (egoism), we would come to realize man’s (our) self-destructiveness. The human material condition is out of control; it always has been. But what’s different now is that the world outside (sense of spaciousness) is shrinking, and there’s nowhere outside to go anymore to escape ourself as ego-satan. So, with the expanded development and heightened sensitivity of modern culture (bigness), there’s a constant encroachment of our space, even of ourself. Thus, if we want to be free of our own self-victimization we will have to confront, penetrate, understand and resolve our own attachment to and conflict with the ego/personality, and the image (individual and collective) that we think is ourself.

For there is no deliverance from our guilt, and our sense of a separate selfhood, with any agency outside our innermost Being! Freedom from want can’t be given to us or guaranteed by another, not by governments, organized religions,  social institutions and groups or persons of any kind. Even man’s law is only as good or as evil as man is himself. Freedom from want is living Free, Free of our own self-destructiveness and suffering (ignorance). If we are not living Free, Freedom from want is not happening!

Thus I often speak of the Way of the cross as a Way of living, not as a single historical event or a single historical person. The Principal of Life or inner Christ (Buddha, Krishna, Tao, Word, etc) is the Living Potential Within all of us. In the gospel story the man Jesus (even as a myth) represents a living example of one who is fulfilling through his own existence on earth the Way of the cross, of living Life, not the image of life (living death). He has seen through the image (creative projection), and selflessly Realizing ourself as a Whole, transmuted his (our) very life’s energy: I am in you and you are in me and we are in ourself as a Whole. Life Is One…Nonliteral, purely Spiritual.

We cannot escape ourself! The pattern of our individual and collective behavior is coming full curcle, as it must, to be transformed. In time we will have to face ourself, and what we see will be mankind’s judgment on himself (ourself)! For we are what we see, what we are living: that’s who (pattern/character) and what (process/condition) we are. And there’s no escaping that!

Mankind Is Turning In On Himself


Mankind is turning in on himself (most of us identify with the body/personality as the center of awareness)! Indeed, man’s own (collective) sense of selfhood (ego-satan), of being separate entities in space who are solidly fixed in mind, like individual blocks of stubborness (thus standing apart from God, the Totality of Being), is rapidly speeding forward (and thus out of control) at a very alarming rate, escalading from normal levels of neurotic behavior to extreme states of obsessive-addictive stupidity. Like a planetary “selfoholic”, mankind ever seeks by whatever means (legal or otherwise) to escape (deny) his present condition rather than confront it, and by so confronting, consciously accept that, at least for the present, there’s a global problem with “us”, man’s own functioning in this world (modern culture) as the human species, and that this “living crisis” needs his (our) full attention.

But mankind wants what he wants, and he wants it now! Like a child who has been spoiled by, or deprived of, parental authority, he can’t stop his craving for whatever (gratification), nor take personal responsibility for his regressive behavior. He lacks emotional maturity, of course, but also a clear sense of direction of where he’s going, and even where he’s been; yet worse still, having been raised in modern culture to do his own thing, even at the expense of others, he rejects the emotional stability (balance) that would allow him to discover within himself a state, even a collective state, of peace and healthy disposition that would manifest outwardly as a matter of character, kindness, generosity and a loving human nature, concerned about the welfare of others–though they may disagree with his own view of the world. But, lacking emotional and cultural stability (tolerance), he must gratify the willful behavior that he thinks, and has been led by culture to intellectually believe, is himself, his true identify. And, like a slave must obey his master, the man-child only pretends to be an adult, seeking in every way he can to appease this self-created pressure (superego) that assails him, and by remaining in denial, arbitrarily projects his willfulness on others as on himself!

Yet mankind wants release from that pressure (life’s energy), from what he believes is being leveled on him from outside, from events registered by his psyche as other than himself, and he wants that release now! But his lack of self-discipline and personal integrity, being a form of self-indulgence, with underlining arrogance, only blinds and binds him to his own willful pattern of victimization even more. Thus he must continue to project onto–and then crave release from–whatever the icon (archetype) is in his mind that unconsciously signifies what is actually his own manipulation, control and exploitation of himself (culture), thus rationalizing, justifying and legalizing, if possible, his own obsessive-addictive behavior (escapism/materialism/egoism) in the psychological process.

And so it is that those individuals who we like to think are responsible for making the rest of us feel guilty and insecure, conscious of our own emotional instability (and with our denial of the same, our own hypocrisy), must be made to pay the price! How dare they say it to our face, even oppress us (or so we think) with what they call the truth. It’s not the truth! We don’t believe in their truth! We don’t have to! So screw their truth! In fact, to achieve peace, these oppressors must be brought down, even destroyed, if necessary! They are evil incarnate, and would take away our freedom to pursue our own happiness, to live the life we choose–and live it in the way that pleases us. Good or bad, it’s our choice to make…our individual and collective right! It’s o.k. to do whatever we want whenever we want to do it. Anyone who says otherwise is an oppressor, and should be attacked as such! So says the man-child among us.

Now, along with this behavior, there are those who are very clever with words. They write and pass laws and legislation, publish articles in books, magazines, newspapers and on computer blogs, host television and radio talk shows, agree to rules and contracts, and then, like a delayed adolescent, fail to live up to their responsibilities in the matter. That is, they say one thing and then do another, as they have no intention of following through on the matter. And they make this all so legal and politically correct! How very clever they are, hoodwinking the people as they do, not to mention, themselves. And the people just seem to take it! But, maybe, in exhibiting the Jekyll and Hyde Syndrome, that’s what people have been conditioned by culture to do since the cradle? Do you think?

The breakdown of parental and cultural authority has been going on for quite some time. Since the end of the second World War, culture has been expanding in self-indulgence but declining at the same rate in moral values. Wars have a way of doing that, of expanding our fear but diminishing our well-being, since in war winning is everything, and the enemy is evil incarnate and must be destroyed–at whatever cost to human lives and future generations. In war we must have our way. But when the war is over we can’t just go back to our previous lives and understandings, expecting nothing to have changed. We have changed! And now, having saved the world from tyranny, we want the good life…an extended escape (vacation) from having to take responsibility for combating other people’s madness (evil) in the world. No more reality. Let’s have fun! and fun! and more fun!

Those of us born just after the war, the “baby boomers”, have inherited the good life…and we have done so with a passion! The baby boomer generation may be aptly named “rebel without a cause”, for, like the James Dean character in the movie, we haven’t a clue about what is really going on with us. So we just react, and getting emotional,  if the feeling is distressful, rebel, and having done so, begin rationalizing, justifying and legalizing, if possible, our willful behavior. Being clever with words, we write books, give seminars, lectures, take opinion polls, film documentaries, or, to entertain the masses, docudramas, about our world (and its past) as we see it now. We organize agency after agency that supposed to take responsibility for, and deal with, what we see–and often don’t like–so we “cut and run” from our moral obligation here, and even teach in our schools and universities that it’s o.k. to disregard the facts and believe what we want to believe, breaking the law if we must, in order to escape that pressure (the energy of living) we feel is oppressing us.

But that pressure we feel is us! It exists because we are projecting it on ourself…on each other! So don’t blame the facts, the law, the police, the military, our parents, politicans or authority in general. Culture is only an extension of us…of what we have made of it. If we feel oppressed by culture, it’s because we are using culture to oppress ourself! But, in order to escape bearing any personal responsibility for this victimization, we project the mind’s manufactured image of it (along with our guilt) on others, and then blame them for it! How convenient it is for some of us, those (extremists) who have the money, power and position, or perpetual madness, to play this image game that feeds on human emotion and insecurity, leading to more hostility, hatred and violence (class warfare). In a world driven by desire, fear and death, and our denial of the same, we live the image, the product we sell ourselves on, playing a media game with our lives. And every time someone is made to pay (suffer) for the deceit and hypocrisy in ourself that comes about with the struggle to get “gratification”, it’s as if we keep nailing Jesus to the cross!

Mankind is turning in on himself (ourself). But why is this happening? It’s not enough to say that man was born to suffer. Why are we suffering? There must be a divine plan even on suffering, as there’s a genetic code in man’s breeding. Man’s born as an infant, and if he survives his childhood and adolescence, may grow into adulthood. And God knows that the process of growing up, becoming mature, is to suffer through many conditions or states of mental and physical development, each having their own purpose or necessity. It’s as if we are continually entering into and graduating from rising grades of intelligence and experience, not to mention, our own negativity which comes with it, on the road to adulthood–and fortunately–for some of us anyway, in the process discovering who and what we are.

Spiritually speaking, we could call the final graduation from this school of life on earth, and all the suffering that goes with it, “resurrection”. For when having entered fully into our adulthood (enlightenment), we now see what all the suffering was about. It was about us identifying with and still holding onto the image of life (mainly the archetype of body/personality) as an end in itself or solid state, and projecting our life’s energy (as separate entities or centers of awareness in space and mind) back upon that image, until, finally, when spiritually maturing to the point of “letting go” (letting be, as it were) of the body/personality–that block (archetype) of stubborness who causes his own suffering–we selflessly Realize the Totality of Being (Nonego)! Thus by and through this psychological process of spiritual maturation (the Way of the cross), we pass through, overcome, rise above or resolve our own childhood and adolescence, intuconsciously Realizing we Are Now Living (Christ) Jesus, our Adulthood!

If man didn’t suffer we couldn’t see (pass) through it, and being that understanding Awareness, rise above it, overcoming the suffering (negative energy) in ourself! This is not a matter of thinking but of Being. When we think of something we create a beginning and an ending, and if we believe we are that thought, if that is our identity (separate selfhood), then we project a beginning and an ending on ourself. But, if we identify ourself as first Being (Intubeing), that is, Being Ourself as a Whole, the pure Intelligence who gives rise to the thought–but is not the thought–then we see (understand) through any beginning or ending, as our Center of Awareness Is Before (through) the thought! Thus intubeing one (the same as) with Christ (Word of God, not a historical person) or Enlightenment (Principal of Life), we are not dependent on any concept, image, form or thing-event, and therefore suffering (separate selfhood) has no place to dwell.

Mankind is turning in on himself, on the very energy-consciousness (spirit) that is his life (our life). The energy-consciousness is ultimately our Lord, our innermost Being, and a Holy Fire (Spirit)! Thus the universe, and that includes mankind in it, is only a means to this end, which is endless, as we come Awake, Aware, Alive to the One Life Force who Is Ourself as a Whole! But, in order to finally Realize Such, mankind must first pass through himself, and all the negativity that comes with the sense of having a separate selfhood (ego) apart from the Totality of Being (God). For only by passing through hell, the cycle of birth and death and reincarnation, can we ever fully Realize the Heaven (Kingdom of God) already Within us…and Being Us, potentially!

I’m So Tired Of Running


I’m so tired of running,
of chasing shadows…and then,
like being caught up in a dream,
of getting chased by one
fragment of my brain!

I’m so tired of running,
of spinning away from here and now…and then
of getting intimidated by that great spook called ego-satan,
who would huff and buff and blow my house in
if I didn’t gratify the immediate desire…the innate fear
that must have its own way even at the expense of another.

I speak now of my own shadow, the other,
the split in my consciousness reflected in another,
who is the only enemy I’ll ever know–
even as I deny my inmost self to make it so.

Still, with a little wholesale knowledge,
I may purge this ego-satan thru my own family,
community, country and the world at large;
but in the end it always comes back to me,
to my own personality, psyche, soul,
duality and sensory perception…
back to the literal perspective, the ego
and its fundamental interpretation.

Yes, back to the one I know–yet constantly
trying to escape from having any direct knowledge of–
as this would, for a certainty,
nail the very sense of self, of life,
to the cross of my own separate identity.

In the end, then, I can’t escape the other,
even my own karma and pattern of behavior;
for what goes around comes around
’til finally confronted and understood,
I see thru this very concept of me and mine
and make naught that spook I am.

Indeed, this moment appears to be all there is,
but in diminishing the sense of time
Rests moment’s Eternity, that is,
if I psychologically die to this partial me–
to that which ever seeks to flee.

I’m so tired of running, of spinning,
so very tired of chasing shadows…and then
getting chased by that great spook called ego-satan.

Let him blow my house in!
Like the samurai said in old Japan,
“A man’s fate is a man’s fate, life is an illusion.”

Indeed, this illusion appears to be all there is,
but in diminishing the spook lies moment’s Eternity,
the Sole Reflecting Wholeness
who waits for His/Her temporal reflections to just let Be…
to stop running from, and remain intimidated by,
anyone or anything outside the Whole.

O my God,
Now everything seems so very Still;
and Stillness Being the Whole of me,
I’m not running anymore!

The Void Inside


O deep, dark void inside me,
I stare directly into you, into now…
and the emptiness I feel penetrates me,
taking root in my brain as a thing-event
tho’ still remaining empty.

Is this void, then, only the nothingness that I am,
stalking the landscape like an arbitrary phantom?

Is this seeming reality
only the shadow of my mind’s play
spun upon a dank consciousness who,
containing his life’s energy in the concept, even now
packages the image like a solid product to be sold
to his grasping intellect as the world outside?

So who and what is this void inside?
Shall I ever know?
Is existence just a projection/sensation of mind?
The world outside just my own partial view?

Indeed, behold the play!
The play is the thing, or so it has been said;
but everything once thought lies in the past…
and the past is dead!

But what if I no longer contain my life’s energy,
the thing?
Rather, I just let be,
ceasing to identify with the thing,
the void?
Is not pure Intelligence more than the mind?

Yes, even the void can be seen thru
with the mind as a Whole;
and just as light penetrates darkness,
fullness liquidates emptiness
and mindfulness permeates every thought,
I am living Spirit!

Still, without first seeing directly into the void
and ceasing to hold on, letting Be,
I couldn’t Know the Word
Being at the very Heart of me,
the Living Spirit and understanding Awareness
that Breathes the Totality that’s every one of us!

Does The Evidence Of God’s Being Exist In Our Own Heart? Are We God?


As only the heart knows, God Is our innermost Being, the Totality of Being (Intubeing), Nonliteral, Nonsensory, Intupersonal, without attachment to or conflict with any thing-event, and therefore the ultimate Center/Heart of Awareness (Nonliteral Perspective).

When we See (Realize) through our own personality or ego, thus putting to Rest that separate selfhood (the true crucifixion), we Are living God in man (Christ Jesus), as you and we and God become (as they have always been) the same Essential Quality (Nonessentiality) or Spirit (Oneness/Wholeness). Remember, the Center of Awareness Rests Before (through) the thing-event, and is not the thing-event, not anything mental or material outside.

It would be like a singular cell (concept) of the body (mind) coming into Full Body/Mind (Andro-Cosmic) Consciousness, in Essence, Selflessly Realizing the Great Singularity (God) from Within. The cell (soul) would see (live) through all aspects of the Body/Mind Continuum as a Whole, intubeing the Body/Mind Ourself (Nonliteral Perspective)–and not just a particular aspect (literal perspective) of the Body/Mind. Or, to put this in another way, it would be like an object in space becoming Aware of the Space (Spirit) as a Whole: our understanding Awareness would penetrate all objects (concepts) in space (mind), as the Center would Be everywhere and nowhere. Such pure Awareness (Intelligence) would Be Nonsensory, Being (Intubeing) the Subject-Object, Energy-Consciousness Continuum Ourself rather than a place or time or mental/material body outside Ourself.

But pure Awareness can only be realized by first confronting, penetrating, understanding, and by that understanding, resolving our split in consciousness (duality/sensory perception/ego) through every moment we live. So, if we are not living/being whatever we don’t know whatever as Ourself, as God. The true Way of the cross, then, is a living cross who leads our soul Into Consciousness (Intubeing). Thus the true Resurrection Is the Selfless Realization of Ourself (pure Spirit) as the Totality of Being (God)! For by fulfilling the Way of the cross through our own existence on earth, we don’t have–BUT ARE–understanding Awareness (Living Jesus), nonliterally speaking.

Who Are We? Is There An Essential You Or I?


Yes…but more an essential We rather than you or I. That is, We Are the basic, pure Intelligence who Nonexists (existence as a Whole) even Before (through) the personality…and may be called the Intupersonality/Nonego or Great Spirit. Yet, most of us identify with a single personality or ego as ourself and thus reinforce a split in consciousness or division in mind from that Whole Intelligence and understanding Awareness who Is our innermost Being (God).

Ego/personality is simply, but arbitrarily, our own conceptual point of view (literal perspective) or particular focal position (center) of concentration in physical space, and attached to the body, as it is, stands out as our primary object image of life (ego/projection); yet we are the Space (Spirit) in ourself and as a Whole…as the Whole Consciousness (One Adam) or Nonliteral Perspective. Even if we were to put aside our physical body and not think of ourself (as ego) at all…the basic Intelligence (Nonego) that we Are will still Be there (unstructured). Such pure Intelligence can never die or end–only the image or concept (form) it takes dies–having a beginning and an ending
to its literal perspective. And so death appears real to the personality, who mistakes the image (form) for his life (being).

But see through the concept of personality, living totally through the moment, and our Center of Awareness Rests as the Intupersonality (everywhere and nowhere) or Nonliteral Perspective. This may also be called Living Life (Jesus) or the Resurrection of Life, as the Totality of Being (Intubeing) Is Before (greater than) the sensory experience…even as pure Intelligence Rests Before (Within) and behind the concept (form) of pure Intelligence.

Naming The Concept


Concepts are not reality, but they are, like reflections in a mirror, extensions of reality. These shadow-entities grab our attention and make us aware that there’s also light, even the light of understanding. Indeed, aware that there’s something (Nonthingness) greater in us than shadows. But, in remaining hooked on the object image of life, man needs constant reminders to help him chart a course straight through his own dark psyche, transforming the ego/personality–and all the concepts (images) that go with it–into Self (Intuself/Nonego), that is, into enlightenment, liberation, the Kingdom of God. Thus concepts are a necessary means of contemplation for the weary traveler in a world beset by many false trails: personal doubts, insecurities, fears, desires, denial, and, maybe, the biggest stumbling block of all, guilt.

Concepts, as precepts, help us to focus our mind on the very energy that the precept represents. Yet the Energy-Consciousness (Spirit) is not the thought but Rests Before the thought (Being greater than), just as the light comes before the shadow–and is greater than the shadow–in fact projects it. But, nonliterally speaking, it may be said that the shadow is also the light (Spirit), like a reflection in the mirror is an extension of the reflector. It’s just that, in the case of human personality, the reflection can’t see the Reflecting (Nonpersonality) and thus doesn’t know it, doesn’t see Who and what we really Are (God). The reflection remains stuck on its own image/duality, sensory perception, ego, the literal perspective, and like a child, is still being manipulated, controlled and exploited by his own childhood (ignorance). Indeed, a child, while still a child, can’t see himself yet as an adult, or, to use another example, a mass of energy–while still centered in its mass–can’t know itself as pure energy.

But when we see (live) through the concept of whatever, even the thought of God, we automatically transmute the energy that is the thought into Self (Intuconsciousness), into the essential Quality that is already ourself as a Whole (Intubeing/Nonessentiality), annihilating any identification with the concept or object image. Thus the reflection, in having died psychologically to itself as a separate entity in space (or mind), selflessly Realizes ourself as the One Soul Reflecting, that is, as the Whole Space (Spirit) or Intuconscious Space (Energy-Consciousness): Nonduality, Nonsensory perception, Nonego (Intuself), the Nonliteral Perspective; and like an adult who sees, knows, lives by virtue of his adulthood, Rests in the understanding Awareness that Is the Totality of Being (God)!

Now, having come Aware, we may give witness to this through the writing and speaking of our understanding (gnosis), of our interior Vision, to others. But language is metaphor, not reality, and we can only do so in speaking by analogy. For what we are speaking of transcends human language! It is not the words themselves (nor the human speakers) that are the ultimate message (Truth) but the Living Energy-Consciousness (Spirit) that comes Before (through) the words (concepts), and cannot be contained by the words! Indeed, we really can’t speak of it directly at all. Being Nonliteral, Such Quality and Dimension of Perception Is greater than any thought; thus Suchness remains the very Life of all that can be known and lived, as Suchness Is Life…Ourself as a Whole!

But, in order that we might communicate (suggest) Suchness to another we first need to give Suchness a name, though, interestingly, Suchness is itself a name, literally speaking. So we may call That which remains Before any name God, Jehovah, Christ, Holy Spirit, Light-Conscious (Living) Energy, Liberation, Truth, Love, Compassion, understanding Awareness, the Nonliteral Perspective, the Presence, the uncarved Block, the Tao, the Principal of Life, the Word, Allah, Intuconscious Space, Intuconsciousness, Intubeing, Nonthingness etc. Suchness has many names…but Suchness, Being Nonliteral, is not any of these names, though in and through these names Suchness Lives! And in and through these names we Live and have our Being, Intubeing! For Suchness and We and the Word Are One Who Is Awake, Alive, Aware In Suchness…In Ourself As A Whole!

So when we speak of God as Jehovah, for example, we are not speaking of another being that’s outside of ourself, up in the sky, perhaps, but of Suchness, our innermost Being, That which Is Before (Within) the name, concept, image or thing-event experienced with the material senses, that is, experienced outside the Center (Wholeness) of Intubeing. Thus God, as a concept, may be said to be a deity, but remain as Suchness a Nondeity. And thing-events, as concepts, may be said to be actual, but remain as Suchness Nonactual.

So, too, in naming the concept, we don’t mean to suggest that the entity named is the essential quality (reality) but only that it is a means of entering into Self, into Being the very Suchness that all things Are (Absolute Relativity).