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Watching The Mind

It’s a living discipline watching the mind…a daily conscious exercise. And as the mind becomes still in watching itself, one may follow the perception of this very moment rise up out of nothingness, its conceptualization (ego-projection) coloring (spinning) the thing-event in front of us, as if the mind and its ego was all there is. But every thing-event, having a beginning and ending, is phenomena and just is what it is. Even ego, regardless of its behavior, just is what it is. Ego cannot really add anything to the subject matter, or take away, tho’ it never ceases pretending to. Thus is ego an illusion…and if taken for reality, self-deception (delusion). Fortunately, it’s just this clarity that comes when seeing through the ego that frees the mind from its own clouded ignorance.

In watching the mind, then, whatever the thought, emotion or experience coming up, ego starts to run, to spin away from right now. Thus it will either attach itself to the thing-event pretending to be the real thing-event or, if the mind cannot, or will not, face the phenomena, deny any relationship (attachment) to the phenomena thereby suppressing consciousness. In either case, the mind thinks that its ego must act, to make a personal effort to run (escape), to spin away from now…unable to fully accept what just is. It makes no difference what the rationale is for the action taken, ego must seek gratification with the action (identifying with) in order to be in control of the situation. That is its nature, as ego sees itself outside of the phenomena and thus seeks security–which exposes the fact in us that ego is fundamentally insecure and out of control.

However, by living meditation, just watching what comes up in the mind, and not making any effort to run from right now, the ego-projection exposes itself to the intelligence (spirit) that we are. And when this living discipline is firmly established as the mind’s focus, eventually the projection loses its hold on the mind and fades out, as the intelligence that we are ceases feeding the ego the energy it needs to dominate the situation…and ego (the watcher) psychologically dies. Even when the mind is disturbed and wants to escape confrontation with the thing-event, if the intelligence that we are refocuses (centers) on right now and remains still, absorbing life’s energy into ourself, eventually the impulse to run will pass and the subject matter can be faced without fear rather than suppressed. Thus whatever action taken next will be spontaneous, in line with our innate self.

Thus when the intelligence (spirit) that we are becomes the Center of Awareness, this Center (Ground) Being everywhere nonliterally speaking and nowhere literally speaking, Lives through every thing-event, for by having inverted the mind and absorbed life’s energy Into Ourself, which Is Selfless, We–the Watching in itself–Are Before the subject matter (watcher)–Intubeing the very Quality or Essence of Perception (Intuperception). And though all phenomena, including our thoughts, emotions and experiences, are just what they are, the pure understanding Awareness/Intelligence that We ultimately Are remains nonattached–and Free to just Be (Intubeing) even Before (through) the mind and its ego.

Universal Subconscious

Drawing on Hindu scripture and the writing of Alan Watts, I liken the mental/material universe outside to a universal subconscious (literal perspective); and thus similar to a dream, play or movie, the action or stream of thoughts, images and thing-events occurring mentally and materially interact in a cosmic comedy-drama (creative farce), often chaotic and subject to the principle of uncertainty. All of which is to say that though what happens in the universe maybe literal and actual, the play of energy itself is illusion (maya), incomplete, therefore not reality. Reality, being here understood as the Totality of Being/Intubeing, by its very Nature, fully Awake, Aware, Alive and Whole, not partial or outside the Nonliteral Center/Source/Ground of Energy-Consciousness in any way.

Thus God in God, so to speak, the innermost Being of everything that is, and Resting completely Selfless, Formless (the Center of Energy-Consciousness Being everywhere nonliterally speaking and nowhere literally speaking), is not the dreamer or universal subconscious. But the literally perceptive and conceptual aspects (images/forms) of God are, which is to say, they mask God, thus distorting the same in (through) phenomena. Therefore phenomena or thing-events in the dream (creation), that is, the forms dreaming (identifying with matter), are by themselves perceptual/conceptual sensations (manifestations) of the dreamer (mind) or collective self, in this case, the universal subconscious who, though being the essential quality behind the forms (masks), is actually (though unconsciously perhaps) playing every part in the comedy-drama (universe)–indeed, while being caught up in the sensation of the dream, sees each thing-event separate from and outside of himself (center). Again, no image/form is God, no conceptualization can be, but nevertheless as a icon can be used by the individual consciousness to see through its own ego-projection and return Into Consciousness, Into the Center/Source/Ground (uncarved Block) that Is Life in itself, Ourself as a Whole.

Now, God in God Is Knowing itself, Being in itself the Living Truth (Principal of Life/Intulife), and so the dream (duality/sensory perception/ego/literal perspective) is no problem, like a reflection in the mirror is no problem to the reflector, who knows who he is (the center) and where the reflection is (outside the center). Likewise, with phenomena, being what it is, God does not identify with the phenomena as Himself, and then taking Himself too seriously, allows phenomena to control (consume) Him while projecting preconceptions unto the subject matter.  There’s no attachment. God Is the real Happening or Nonthing-Event (Center of Energy-Consciousness). Therefore the seeming evil and terrible thing-events that happen in a violent and self-victimizing universe are but shadows or projections of the dreamer and thus insubstantial in themselves (nothingness). These thing-events, being partial, relative, subjective, having beginning and ending, cannot occur in the Totality of Being (God in God), which has no past and no future–Resting Complete in Ourself as a Whole.

Thus when the forms dreaming wake up in the dream, even while still dreaming, the self (dreamer) is seen through from Within, and understanding Awareness (God’s Presence), our innermost Being, comes Alive through the form (person): personhood has psychologically died to itself, the dream becomes as if it never was, and Energy-Consciousness (Intuconsciousness) Is regained! Actually Such was never lost. The self, even a universal subconscious, has become the icon being used individually to confront, penetrate, understand and resolve the contraries of human nature (one’s own separateness). If one knows the icon for what it is, then there’s no problem with it, like a reflection in the mirror, the reflection is not the center of consciousness, and has no power, life or cause by itself. Likewise, personhood lies insubstantial (nothingness). The only Power, Life or Cause That Is…Is Selfless/Formless…the pure Intelligence (Spirit/essential Quality) behind and Within all experience, the Totality of Being, Ourself as a Whole (Nonliteral Perspective)!

Welcome To Being Fully Alive

Welcome to being fully Alive, that is, to be Knowing without needing a witness or secondary consciousness (ego) to tell you that you know: to see, to feel, to act in a stream of Consciousness, ever-present as the Oneness and Unity of all things…as the Wholeness Within and Before (behind) all things, whose Nature Is Now and whose Life Is Love.

You may call That Divine, but the concept of That is not That; nor can ego-awareness achieve That, for by its very nature of remaining a separate entity in space and mind, selfhood can never be Enlightenment, can never be Complete As the Knowing, the Being in Ourself as a Whole (Intubeing). Indeed, you by yourself cannot know/live Liberation and thus remain a pretender or dark shadow to Ourself, bound to the particular image and form that stands apart from the Principal of Life, whose Word (Tao) encompasses all in Spirit everlasting.

But when you let go of your own separate self-awareness, the ego-block to happiness is removed and Knowing reigns supreme, even as Selflessness Grounds Our Nature and the Love of just Being Breathes Our Life. There is nothing outside Ourself as a Whole; what seems outside is only phenomena, maya, creative illusion or projections/sensations of mind. Therefore do not mind (identify with) what seems outside, but see/live/pass through the media (senses) of life, inverting your mind to That Center/Ground of Being Within all…to Who and what We Are.

Intubeing Who and what We Are, you do not think (project) what is happening outside to be to one’s advantage or disadvantage, neither to one’s gain or loss; you do not see anything outside to be good or not good, to be right or wrong, positive or negative by itself; and regardless of what happens, you do not divide this from that (opposites) but live the Unity Resting Within all things, intuseeing through all things Ourself as a Whole.

Thus there is no knower, only the Knowing, no watcher, only the Watching, no doer, only the Doing, only the Streaming of Energy-Consciousness (Intuconsciousness) ever-present: indeed, you are One with That which Is…Is Selflessly Realizing As That understanding Awareness In Ourself. Welcome To Being Fully Alive!

The Seeing


Being Before any seer and that which is seen (sensory perception) is the Seeing (Nonsensory Perception) in itself. Even before the mind (mirror) registers the thought (reflection) of seeing, the Seeing, Being complete in itself, remains nonattached to the thought. Such is our inmost Center of Energy-Consciousness (Spirit) resting everywhere and nowhere. Thus the mind (soul) is a secondary movement that borrows (extends) from and depends on the Seeing (Being) for it’s own seeming (separate) existence.

The Seeing Is Knowing, and Knowing is our most natural/spiritual (primal) Intelligence: the Knowing (ever-present) Being before the knower and that which is known (the past), Intubeing the self that is Selfless, the form that is Formless, as Such was never born and will never die. Identify with That and we, too, are the Seeing (inmost Being), resting behind the eyes and within the heart of existence as the Nonliteral Perspective.

Ultimately there’s only the Seeing (Being), the Nonliteral Perspective (Intuperception), as Such remains the Nonactual Source out of which all actuality mental and material comes forth and returns into (arises and passes away), the essential Quality, that is, Nonessentiality resting within and behind all forms of awareness. Indeed, such pure Energy-Consciousness (Spirit) moves wholly within itself (ourself), just Seeing, first Being, the Knowing itself, the One that Is all. Identify with That and we are fully Awake, Alive, Aware and Whole, riding the dragon (energy), living the vision (consciousness), that is, ourself.

Therefore, Seeing/Knowing ourself as a Whole, Intubeing That which Is, pulsates the soul-purpose behind creation (the Creating). And when we are finally ready as a mind (soul) to fully Awake, to come totally Alive, to be Whole right Now, to just Be that understanding Awareness which Is Knowing itself (ourself) through all actuality, then the Heart Speaks (Center) and the barrier that is the literal perspective (duality/sensory perception/ego)–our own projection/creation of mind–falls away as the other is seen through. Thus We Are Seeing/Knowing as the Whole Consciousness, as all is within Us…and Is Us!

Living Meditation


When you look at something, just see it as it is without projecting any preconception onto it, indeed, without thinking anything. Let that original perception be the start of your meditation and center yourself on the stillness within. After a short pause, your mind will automatically project a concept of what it is that you are seeing, a “now” concept, not a preconception held onto from past experience. But whatever the concept, don’t identify with it, don’t hold onto it or possess (desire) it as an end in itself, as a reality. For whatever is outside you–and that includes your personal thoughts, feelings and experiences–remain at best, extensions of you, but is not you. You are the center of intelligence (being), not what you see or experience.

It’s like standing in front of a mirror, what you observe is only a reflection in the mirror, the real you is the pure intelligence (spirit) that observes. And as the ultimate mirror is the mind, your personal thoughts, feelings and experiences, as well as all images and forms, are only reflections (extensions) in the mind–and the physical universe but a shadow world. And yet, by dropping any attachment to these images, forms and concepts (reflections), that is, not identifying with them, they can become a means of meditation through which you may return to the Source within you, which is the real You, our innermost Being and pure Awareness in itself, or that which Is, whose Center is everywhere nonliterally speaking, and nowhere literally speaking. Such is living meditation.

Now, by living an attitude of nonattachment and holy indifference, you remain free to engage life’s activities, or free not to, without feeling separated from the Whole (One) Consciousness that we are. And, at times, since you are no longer interfering with the open, most natural, spiritual Flow of Energy-Consciousness, our inmost Being may reveal to you from within–and through the material (means) outside–living insights into our true self, which is Selfless, into our true form, which is Formless. You will be living the Unity behind the seeming duality of life, the Spirit behind the seeming material of life, the Nonliteral Perspective behind the seeming literal perspective (ego) of life. You will Be One with God, the real You (Totality of Being). Such is living meditation.